I love the dark

I love the dark
Because all my reponsibilities fade away
I love the dark
Because i see clearer than i see during day
I love the dark
Because i can be who i am and want to be
I love the dark
Because it's the only time my thoughts run free
I love the dark
Because it keeps me silent and divine
I love the dark
Because then I know you are mine
I love the dark
Because it is just me and you
I love the dark
Because even through darkness I know you see me too.

Rejection

Ouch. It hurts. Now I dont have a lot of experience but I suppose being stood up feels the same just that the feeling doesnt last as long ( thats just my opinion by the way ). I personally believe no one deserves to be treated like this and if you are planning on not going to e.g. the cinema with them just tell him/her. The feeling of rejection I believe is one of the most powerful feelings and is a feeling that a lot of people mess with. Take the X-Factor. When they tell the contestants wether their through to the live shows or not they say so many things implying their not and then surprise them with a yes. Some see this as oh its so nice their taking him/her to the shows. In reality though they have been playing with these peoples emotions non stop and it just keeps on continuing. When has it become acceptable to do something like that? Just like when has it become acceptable to mess with someones emotions in a relationship? The feeling of rejection can really be applied to any situation. Its the feeling you get when your bullied at school, when you are stood up, when you are not seen by the person you really like and when you are dumped. There are so many more situations, too many to mention. It can be so powerful and hurtful that it drives certain people to do stupid things (and i think we all know what I mean with this). Personally I do believe sometimes you have to create this "armour" to be able to handle that, however that still doesnt make it ok. And that my friends is what some people forget. Just because the boy you bullied everyday doesnt respond anymore does also not mean you can just continue non-stop.

High romantic standards

Why hello everyone. Long time no see..read..thing. So even though i have been offline for a bit a lot has happened. Many things that have made me think about girls..in a non sexual way may i add. Many of girls out there have incredibly high hopes and standards when it comes to "love". Personally I am starting to believe less and less in it but I know there are some out there who still want mr. Darcy to show up at their door at dawn and propose. However I am starting to realize more and more that that is not going to happen. I sometimes have the wildest imagination ( non sexual again). Seeing "the one" walking towards me and telling me he loves me like mr. Rochester tells Jane. Or having the kind of love like Noah and Ally. But the more ideas i get the more I start to understand the impact these ideas and the following dissappointment have on me. I seriously watch to many films like the Notebook, Jane Eyre etc. Sometimes I seriously think we should just ban the whole genre in general. Its just incredibly depressing to me. Due to having watched so many of these films girls are just starting to dislike their partners because "he didnt build a house for me like Noah did" etc. All I can say is: guys I am so sorry you have to deal with this at times. It must be so frustrating. Women , I believe, are starting to underappreciate their partners due to those kind of films and books like fifty shades of grey.... I think we need to stop watching these films over and over again and need to be more open to what romance in the real world is like and to all thats out there. I think it would make life a lot easier for is girls and the guys in the real world we life in.

Falling in love with the impossible

Hey y'all. Is everyone prepared for a deep blog?? Yeah me neither so I'm gonna try to keep this simple and not too over dramatic. However since (as everyone knows) I am an over dramatic person you will find this ,hopefully, amusing. So school has started (yay) and many new people have been inhabiting the school. I personally always love the beginning of school because it is a chance to meet new people and to have a fresh start and re-invent yourself. However a new year means new drama. I sometimes literally think me and my friends should be in like a reality tv-series because I mean OMG...ok anyway. And new drama includes falling in love. However while this process can be wonderful and amazing it can also be fairly annoying. Personally I think the term "falling in love" isn't really appropriate for this kind of "liking someone" but I prefer the term falling in love so I'm sticking with it. So as you can see from the title one can fall for the impossible. This could mean liking someone that you know will never...ever like you back. It could also mean falling for someone who likes you but you know you can never be together (twilight...). It could even go as far as liking someone who is taken. Now the only thing I will tell you is that one of these 3 things happened to me. How to deal with it? No freaking clue. I'm personally still trying to work it out. However I do have one tip for y'all today. When falling for the impossible realize that it is impossible. Stop dreaming about something happening that will bring you two together because the possibility of that is like..0.1%. As harsh as this may sound it will probably either:

1. save you the pain of falling and then having to get over it.
2. help you get over him/her.
3. stop you from falling for the impossible in the future. 

I know I know.. I don't give the best advice but it is the thing that helps me. But still at times I find myself still trying to convince myself; nothing is going to happen,  let it go. 
But it's not always that easy...

Relationship status: none

So since this blog is supposed to be a way for me to order my thoughts why not get personal. I have been thinking a lot about relationships for quite a while now. So since I could not think of anything else....yes i really am a girl, I asked people for advice. Shockingly many people suggested that relationships are not about love. Realizing that I had been in the wrong (apparently) for many months I couldnt stop wondering
"Is there really no such thing as romance love and passion in relationships now a days?!" Had films like pride&predjudice and Northanger Abbey really deceived my mind?? Did I really excpect too much from a relationship, or was there still someone out there who wanted the same? (Preferably a 16 year old boy) It made me realize that that spark that I had longed for in a relationship  apparently no longer....existed?!