Go your own way

Sometimes it is time to say goodbye. Goodbye to people, goodbye to things that used to bring us joy, goodbye to the past. It enables you to look more into the present and prepare for the future. This said, it is one of the hardest things to do. Not just saying bye to people but also to things that remind you of how things used to be. Whether they are painful or happy memories does not matter, it can be as equally difficult. It all depends on how you cope.

Am I going to be the person that is not able to cope and goes back to old habits and hides from friends and the truth?
Am I going to be the person that can just move on and understand the situation and not mind that much?
Do I have a choice...?

I think how we cope is different in every situation. Saying bye to memories is something I find extremely difficult. I can't seem to let go of the past and am scared of the future. What it holds and how it will unfold without my control scares me everyday, The rational part of me says; "you have no control over how the future will be, only over how you see the present day so why worry". But the constantly scared part of me reminds me everyday of how things were when I was younger and how everything just seemed so much easier. When I look back I feel like it was a completely different life that I had. Like it is not MY past but someone else's, I'm sure this is something at least one of you can relate to as well. It seems as though these memories come back every time I have to let go of someone. The sadness of having to leave behind a friend with whom you shared memories, secrets, jokes, can bring back not just that part of the past but everything from before as well. This is what makes it so difficult. It is not the knowing you will no longer make any more memories. It is the knowing that the ones you have no longer matter, that they should be wiped and should be seen as bad memories and not happy ones. Because the person let you down....so how can any of those memories really be happy? We want to make those memories bad...because if they were good then we really are letting go of someone we cared about and saw as a friend, and that reality hurts more than anything else.
So how do we move forward?.....  we choose.

Society and Wars

I am currently in The Netherlands watching a debate about human privacy. The question is whether we want maximum privacy or maximum safety and whether we have to give up privacy to receive safety. It made me start thinking about the new rules in airports in England at the moment:

1. Laptops and phones need to be fully charged when travelling.
2. You need to be able to switch electronic devices on when asked to.

For someone like me who travels a lot I know this at times is impossible. For example,
I have been in school all day and leave at 3 pm to immediately go to the airport. My phone might be almost out of battery by the time I am going through checks as I have had no time to charge it. These new rules to me show that slowly we are becoming a distrusting society where because of mistakes made by others everyone suffers. War is slowly coming again. Russia is becoming more violent towards the Ukraine and is stretching the boundaries. And no one is really intervening as no one wants to deal with Russia and all of its problems. The Israelian army is bombing Gaza while they are also firing rockets towards Israel both ,now, also killing innocent civilians. A fifth of all casualties is children. A fifth. War is slowly coming again.

I personally believe society is falling apart. We do not trust and are constantly tip-toeing around trying not to provoke anyone. Our traumatised past containing WW1, WW2 and the cold war is still now restricting us from intervening from current issues, as we do not want another war. Society is falling apart and the worst part...there is nothing I can do to help.

Society and Wars

I am currently in The Netherlands watching a debate about human privacy. The question is whether we want maximum privacy or maximum safety and whether we have to give up privacy to receive safety. It made me start thinking about the new rules in airports in England at the moment:

1. Laptops and phones need to be fully charged when travelling.
2. You need to be able to switch electronic devices on when asked to.

For someone like me who travels a lot I know this at times is impossible. For example,
I have been in school all day and leave at 3 pm to immediately go to the airport. My phone might be almost out of battery by the time I am going through checks as I have had no time to charge it. These new rules to me show that slowly we are becoming a distrusting society where because of mistakes made by others everyone suffers. War is slowly coming again. Russia is becoming more violent towards the Ukraine and is stretching the boundaries. And no one is really intervening as no one wants to deal with Russia and all of its problems. The Israelian army is bombing Gaza while they are also firing rockets towards Israel both ,now, also killing innocent civilians. A fifth of all casualties is children. A fifth. War is slowly coming again.

I personally believe society is falling apart. We do not trust and are constantly tip-toeing around trying not to provoke anyone. Our traumatised past containing WW1, WW2 and the cold war is still now restricting us from intervening from current issues, as we do not want another war. Society is falling apart and the worst part...there is nothing I can do to help.