I love the dark

I love the dark
Because all my reponsibilities fade away
I love the dark
Because i see clearer than i see during day
I love the dark
Because i can be who i am and want to be
I love the dark
Because it's the only time my thoughts run free
I love the dark
Because it keeps me silent and divine
I love the dark
Because then I know you are mine
I love the dark
Because it is just me and you
I love the dark
Because even through darkness I know you see me too.

Rejection

Ouch. It hurts. Now I dont have a lot of experience but I suppose being stood up feels the same just that the feeling doesnt last as long ( thats just my opinion by the way ). I personally believe no one deserves to be treated like this and if you are planning on not going to e.g. the cinema with them just tell him/her. The feeling of rejection I believe is one of the most powerful feelings and is a feeling that a lot of people mess with. Take the X-Factor. When they tell the contestants wether their through to the live shows or not they say so many things implying their not and then surprise them with a yes. Some see this as oh its so nice their taking him/her to the shows. In reality though they have been playing with these peoples emotions non stop and it just keeps on continuing. When has it become acceptable to do something like that? Just like when has it become acceptable to mess with someones emotions in a relationship? The feeling of rejection can really be applied to any situation. Its the feeling you get when your bullied at school, when you are stood up, when you are not seen by the person you really like and when you are dumped. There are so many more situations, too many to mention. It can be so powerful and hurtful that it drives certain people to do stupid things (and i think we all know what I mean with this). Personally I do believe sometimes you have to create this "armour" to be able to handle that, however that still doesnt make it ok. And that my friends is what some people forget. Just because the boy you bullied everyday doesnt respond anymore does also not mean you can just continue non-stop.

The stressing virus

Heyah guys. So since some of you know I am in sixth form (finally!) and enjoying the little bit of extra freedom that I have gained. I remember at the beginning me and all of my friends were so happy because we felt like we had accomplished something big (GCSE results yay) and were on the path to...well to succes I suppose. The first few weeks were amazing and we were enjoying it so much. However we are slowly starting to feel the pressure of this extra responsibility and freedom. Right now we are in about the 9th week of sixth form and people are slowly rotting away inside. More and more homework is set and exams are coming closer...even though they are in June/July. We feel like now is the time to prepare for the future and like we should know what we want to do. I had a long conversation with my friend about this and we both noticed that instead of actually working on what we had to achieve now we were only worrying about what was to happen in the future. With sixth form more comes to show than just responsibility. Of course now that we are more mature we have a different kind of life style and parties become more of a normal and everyday / every weekend thing. This means that subconciously, I believe, we have lost a part of what we used to do which was just hanging out and chat for a few hours. This means that we now feel all of this pressure on our shoulders of having to decide everything now while knowing that we are still in an economic depression and that unemployment rates are still incredibly high and feeling like we have lost a part of our childhood. However there is always a way around all of this stress that just keeps on building up inside everyone, apparently. One of my friends actually came with a very good idea: 

"you shouldnt regret the past or worry and stress about the future"

We should be happy that we have the chances that we have to improve our chances of having a good job later even during this economic depression and the sudent fees etc. We need to stick together and enjoy that little extra freedom and that extra responsibility. I believe by embracing what you have now it is a lot easier to have a good time and to enjoy the time that we are in now.

 



High romantic standards

Why hello everyone. Long time no see..read..thing. So even though i have been offline for a bit a lot has happened. Many things that have made me think about girls..in a non sexual way may i add. Many of girls out there have incredibly high hopes and standards when it comes to "love". Personally I am starting to believe less and less in it but I know there are some out there who still want mr. Darcy to show up at their door at dawn and propose. However I am starting to realize more and more that that is not going to happen. I sometimes have the wildest imagination ( non sexual again). Seeing "the one" walking towards me and telling me he loves me like mr. Rochester tells Jane. Or having the kind of love like Noah and Ally. But the more ideas i get the more I start to understand the impact these ideas and the following dissappointment have on me. I seriously watch to many films like the Notebook, Jane Eyre etc. Sometimes I seriously think we should just ban the whole genre in general. Its just incredibly depressing to me. Due to having watched so many of these films girls are just starting to dislike their partners because "he didnt build a house for me like Noah did" etc. All I can say is: guys I am so sorry you have to deal with this at times. It must be so frustrating. Women , I believe, are starting to underappreciate their partners due to those kind of films and books like fifty shades of grey.... I think we need to stop watching these films over and over again and need to be more open to what romance in the real world is like and to all thats out there. I think it would make life a lot easier for is girls and the guys in the real world we life in.